Will I ever learn?

I decided to try eating soon after I got up today. The nausea was semi-mild, so I thought I’d give it a try. Bad idea. Like really stupid. Now I’m sitting in bed willing myself not to throw up.

I should get the progesterone level back Friday & hopefully it’s high & I won’t have to continue using it.

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This is *on* the Zofran???

I’ve thrown up 7 times today. 5 first thing in the morning, then twice after I ate. I’ve taken the lower dose of Zofran twice & I’m keeping water down but not food. If this is the beginning of hyperemesis I’ll scream.

I get my progesterone level checked tomorrow & if it’s too high I go off of it. I kind of wonder if that’s not what’s going on. Maybe my levels are really high right now?

I’m supposed to go to NYC Thursday but I just let Dan know that I might not be going. It sucks because I was actually looking forward to the trip, but I can’t travel like this. The trip to Las Vegas for Jason & Brie’s wedding almost did me in.

Leaving now to see the neurologist since my Lamictal level dropped to practically nothing. Really hope I don’t get put on driving restriction.

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new low?

I thought throwing up in the grocery store was my low. Nope. Today I managed to throw up all over my arm. I was running to the bathroom but didn’t quite make it. As I was lifting the toilet lid out it came. So not good. I guess throwing up on my arm in the grocery store would be worse though…

I’m totally going to do a post about the ultrasound. You know, as soon as this nausea passes.

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You know what today is?

It’s ultrasound day! It’s ultrasound day! It’s ultrasound day!

I’m totally bouncy! I wasn’t nauseous when I woke up but as soon as I took a sip of my Sprite it hit me. It’s not Zofran worthy nausea; more like a little annoyance.

I go in at 3:30 today. Fingers crossed that she isn’t running behind today.

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progesterone levels & toilet visits (not necessarily related)

The nurse I hate don’t care for called Friday to let me know that my blood work was back.

  • Nurse: We got your blood work back & the doctor wants you to continue on your current regimen.
  • Me: Okay, did my levels go up at least?
  • Nurse: (Big sigh) What were your levels before?
  • Me: It was either 18.9 or 19.1 I can’t remember at the moment.
  • Nurse: When are you coming in?
  • Me: Tuesday.
  • Nurse (big sigh) That means your chart is already pulled & A (the other nurse) doesn’t like me to mess with them.
  • Me: …
  • Me: Sorry about that.
  • Nurse: Your progesterone level was 18.7
  • Me: Oh, so it’s down a little.
  • Nurse: …
  • Me: Okay, see you Tuesday.
  • Nurse: (hangs up phone)

So I have no idea what that means. It’s close to maintaining the level, but does that mean that it would have decreased further if I weren’t on it?

I did figure out today that I’m on a very low dose. I’m only using it once a day & it’s just 45mg/dose. A lot of women are using 50-100mg/dose twice daily & those on the pills instead of the cream or suppositories are taking up to 600mg daily. (Have I mentioned how glad I am that I don’t have to use the suppositories?)

I kind of wonder if she didn’t put me on a low dose just for that purpose. My level was actually pretty good, so maybe this is just to keep it that way? I know that progesterone levels fluctuate quite a bit. Someone on one of the websites I go to said hers went from 23 to 21.7 to 19 before going up again and her doctor said that was fine.

So, I have no idea what’s going on with my progesterone levels, but I do know that the “morning sickness” is madly in love with me & doesn’t want to leave my side. Still, it’s nothing like hyperemesis, but it’s still not fun.

I don’t even bother trying to eat before 2pm now. If I do, it just comes back up. After 2 I can generally keep food down & after 7pm or so I am usually able to eat without a problem. Friday night was different though. I  finished my dinner & the smell immediately made me nauseous. I didn’t vomit, but I had to get as far away from the kitchen as possible.

Yesterday I tried to eat, but nothing sounds good & if I make myself eat when I’m not hungry I will get sick. So what did I do? Made myself eat a little & unfortunately threw up right after Misha got home.

You know what’s worse than throwing up? Throwing up with an empty stomach. You know what’s worse than that? Throwing up stomach acid when you have heartburn already. FML.

Zoë has decided that she is my caretaker so I’m going to go snuggle up with her.

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He can be so nice

Misha went to the store last night to pick up some stuff for me & came home with these:

Some of my favorite flowers

I put them in the bedroom & it smells so pretty in there now. Such a nice husband!

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The *worst* things you can say to someone going through a miscarriage

There is a woman on the November board who is going through a miscarriage right now & I was reading some of the comments people left her & it just pissed me off. Just say how sorry you are FFS. My list of some of the worst things you can say when someone has a miscarriage:

  • Everything happens for a reason
  • God had other plans
  • Don’t worry, you can try again
  • At least you know you can get pregnant
  • You’ll be over it soon
  • The next one will be better
  • It’s better that it happens now rather than later
  • There was obviously something wrong with that baby, so it’s just sorted itself out
  • That baby probably would have been born with all sorts of problems, at least you can try again for a healthy one

Yes, these are all things I’ve seen or have had said to me or I’ve read on baby boards. I’m serious, if you can’t come up with something useful to say just STFU. The only thing a woman needs to hear are condolences & offers for a shoulder to cry on.

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Each morning I wake up, before I put on my make-up…

I spend a little time with my head in the toilet. Mostly gagging, wretching, stuff like that. Funsies. Still, it’s nothing like having hyperemesis, so I can hang.

Things I’m looking forward to this week:

  • Lunch & pedicures with Tara & Carole on Saturday
  • Finding out progesterone level
  • 1st appointment & ultrasound on Tuesday

I should have some ultrasound pictures Tuesday. I won’t post them anywhere of course, because I still think that’s creepy.

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April 6

Happy birthday Aunt Sue!!!

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Heartburn, it's what's for dinner.

So… dinner. That didn’t go so well. I went to the kitchen quite hungry & with only mild heartburn thinking I should make some dinner. I decided to just make some Quorn nuggets & green beans. Easy right? No reason I should have any problem with that. Got the box out of the freezer & had to throw it right back in as I heaved over the trash can. Felt fine after I got out of the kitchen & stopped thinking about food.

Garlic bread was the only thing that was appealing tonight, so Misha made some for me. Ate it just fine, kept it down without a problem, but now I want to coat the inside of my esophagus with Maalox or something because of the acid & heartburn.  *shakes head* Will I ever learn?

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