I’m really trying to refocus. I need to focus on school, Baby, Maggie, and Hushbear but I keep thinking about Isabell. I had routines with her and retraining myself is hard. She was so small, but the house seems so big and so empty now.

The pain isn’t quite as bad as it was, but I feel like I’m being dragged down. Maybe once I am pregnant again I will have some hope and something to focus on, but right now I just miss my little girl so much.