I’m not active on babycenter like I was last pregnancy. I think it’s because I’ve been through a lot of the first trimester stuff on the boards. When I miscarried half of my board was entering their 2nd trimester already, so I’ve read it all.

I’m at the tail end of my birth board since I’m due at the end of November. Now it ranges from about 6 to 11 weeks along and as with every birth board, we’ve got a lot of miscarriages at this point. Reading the posts doesn’t upset me. I feel sorry for the women going through it and I wish I could actually say something that would make them feel better.

For now I think I’m just going to lay low & count the days until my ultrasound. It’s difficult for Misha to go the day I’ve made the appointment (April 9) & I really want him to be there. I’m going to try to schedule it for the next week. I actually like that better because I’ll be past the 7 week mark & the longer you wait, the more you see. The difference between my first and second ultrasounds was amazing.

A small part of me wants to have the ultrasound as soon as possible, but a bigger part wants to wait. Plus, If I wait they’ll have my blood work back & we can talk about where my levels are at. I’d re-read this post to edit it & make sure it makes sense, but I’m too tired to care.

Oh, and I totally had my first crying episode today. I was reading a story & it was a little sad & sent me into tears. So glad Misha wasn’t home for that.