Since the beginning this has been a secret blog. I didn’t even tell hushbear about it. It was a place for me to vent about work, and I couldn’t really let anyone know where I worked. Once I wasn’t working much anymore it became a place to bitch about school. It got admittedly less funny as time went on. (Not that I think it’s particularly hilarious at any point.)

Since Monday, 12/08/08 it’s become a place for me to express my pain and insecurity. I’ve given out the blog address to some of the people who are important to me (hello, you know who you are) and I’ve put it on as my sig on babycenter.com. I don’t know why I changed my mind, but I did. I think it’s easier to let everyone read the raw written experience than to tell it to them directly.

I feel I should warn you, most entries about pharmacy have a lot of foul language. Most entries about school make no sense because of the insomnia. Most entries about pregnancy were just me whining and moaning about throwing up.

All of the entries about the miscarriage are stream of consciousness. I didn’t really edit them and I haven’t gone back to read them. I’ve been told by at least 2 people that they are painful to read. It’s what I was feeling at the time and I admit, I cried the entire time I was typing them.

This is me good, bad, or otherwise.

If you have any questions for me (and I don’t know you so you don’t have my real email address), I’ve got an email address linked to this blog. It’s seasonblogs@gmail.com

Oh, and the picture under “about me” -yeah, that’s exactly what I look like, just ask anyone that knows me!